Coming Home

I am always amazed by the constancy of life. I often hear people exclaim, Aw it just never stops!” We always seem to be in a constant state of flow, rarely taking time to be still. As a parent I often know this to be true, until my little darling’s heads hit the pillow I rarely get time to pee in peace never mind enjoy quiet contemplation!

And yet in the mele of our daily lives if we don’t stop we can almost start to lose ourselves to the “stuff” that demands our attention. I know, for me, over the last number of years I had gotten so caught up in the craziness of life that I had lost myself in my own expectations, and that of others. Part of recovery has involved a slowing down of the mind and body. This slowing was not an intervention I openly pursued, in fact, it was kinda thrust upon me when I eventually reached my limit and could no longer cope.

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From knowing to feeling

It is no secret that over the last year I have been on a voyage of discovery and learning. It has certainly been stormy at times and there were moments I doubted whether I would ever reach calmer shores. For those who are new to this blog, I have been working through an Eating Disorder which has had a profound effect on my physical and mental wellbeing.

With a tinge of embarrassment, I admit that when I started to really struggle with eating difficulties, I was training as a counsellor. I was learning theory and tools to help others with their mental health, all the while I could feel my own unravelling. There was a disconnect between what I knew and how I felt.

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Anorexia, hedgehogs and cream buns…

When I started blogging again, I wanted to write to; offer hope, dispel the myths of mental ill-health and share some of my journey. I feel I am ready to talk a little more about this last year for me, so I am just putting out a trigger warning; if you are easily triggered by difficulties around eating behaviours you may wish to skip this weeks blog: let your wise self judge what’s best for you.

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